10 months

This is just for my memories I guess but I know that some people ( Love ya'll) read my blog. Please Please don't take this as whining.
It's been 10 months since we lost Zachary. I can't believe it's almost been a year since our baby died. 10 months since I almost died. Why does it seem like So long ago and at the same time just like yesterday? The pain has lessend some but it's always still there. In the back of my mind And in my heart. No one in my family has brought it up. At the bingo party last night my friend Shellys Aunt Sue talked to me about our loss. She's the first person in months that has. She lost her daughter Tara a few weeks before we lost zach. Tara had Downs and became very sick and was in the hospital. She never got better and never left the hospital. She was such a sweet girl. Her mom and step Dad keep her room Exactly the same as when she left. I feel so badly for them. They miss her so much. But she knows the pain of loss and she understands. it's nice to get to talk to someone IRL that understands. most people think when you lose a baby you should just "Get over it" you know time has gone by. They think that the loss and Pain has just evaporated. I'm sorry it doesn't! It'll Always be with me. Forever. Zachary should be here with us right now! He should be 4 months old! I don't understand it and I know I never will.
Mommy Loves you So much Zachary. To the moon and back.